I’m back! Hopefully this isn’t a one-off post. I’m trying to get better about making sure that my blog, Instagram, Twitter, etc. are updated at least regularly. Here’s to hoping! It’s just hard to create a schedule, stick with it, and really take the amount of time necessary when you’re a full-time school teacher. I mean, I’m not trying to make any excuses but it’s true. Being a teacher takes up SO much of your time that it’s hard to fit other things in.
Ok, so here’s the update:
I have decided to look into the route of having Weight Loss Surgery. This has honestly been such a hard time in my life because I have felt like such a failure in every respect when it comes to losing weight. I’m sick of knowing that I have followed a program to a T and still gain weight. Not to bash the program, because I know that so many people have succeeded with it, but the 21 Day Fix set me back big time. I spent all of this time and money on the program, which promises up to 15 pounds of weight loss, and I did the exact opposite by the end of the program… I gained 15 pounds! Am I wrong for being so overly frustrated? I don’t believe that I am wrong.
Anyways, this whole process of looking into WLS came about because of my sister, who underwent Roux-en-Y Gastric Bypass in September of 2016. She and I had a “conversation” about the possibility of me looking into a bariatric program back in February; however, I was not ready to listen with an open mind. I told her, “I’ll think about it” which in Adrian-speak is, “Leave me the hell alone. This conversation is over.” She knows me well enough to know that when I say that I’ll think about something that I am just not ready to discuss the topic at that moment, so she let it drop.
Things changed on March 15, 2017. I stepped on the scale and saw that my weight had gone up again. I am now at my highest weight of 250 pounds. **For reference: I’m 5’3″ tall, which puts me at a BMI of 44.3** It was 5:00 in the morning and I started my day off in tears. Needless to say, I took my prep time that day to look into my local bariatric program (the same one my sister went through) and researched what it’s all about. Is it a “quick fix” that people assume it is? Is is a “tool”? What is bariatric surgery? I got some of the answers that I needed, and also discovered that I had to attend a seminar in order to even be considered for the program. I texted my sister asking what she was doing that night. When she responded that her schedule was free, I told her to meet me at the hospital at 6:00 and that I was going to go to the seminar. She was honestly happy for me for taking the initial steps to look into getting help.
That’s what I need: help.
The seminar was mind-blowing. I was so wrong about everything regarding bariatric surgery. I mean, I saw everything that my sister had to go through before her surgery; however, I didn’t really know. It truly isn’t a quick fix. It really is a tool, and if you misuse that tool, all of that work will be for naught.
Needless to say, after that I really became passionate about getting the help that I need. It took 2 weeks to schedule my initial consultation appointment, but they were awesome and were able to find me an appointment for Monday, April 17th (because it’s spring break, and I can’t justify taking time off of school for a 2-hour appointment). I am so excited about this journey. I’m also absolutely terrified!
This blog will be transforming throughout this process, I’m sure. What started as a blog to chronicle finding a more sustainably healthy lifestyle the “natural” way (lawd do I hate that phrase), is now becoming a blog that chronicles the process of a bariatric patient.
Won’t you join me on this journey?